FOR YOU: "Fear can hold you prisoner, hope can set you free." - Unknown
i love being a part of joshgrobanmusic because you get to do cool things like THIS:
Which Josh Groban song are you?
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and get all spastic about it like ME!
the other cool thing is...well it's not cool but having friend issues sucks majorly. aranel wants me to call her and i'm kind of holding off on that for as long as i can. see i really don't think we're that tight anymore, really. i dunno how it happened, and i wish it hadn't. but i think i know why she wants me to call her. hopefully it's just to explain her boring day at work, then i do the same like usual, but i think not. sunday morning she asked me if i wanted to hang out tuesday cause that was my day off. i said sure. she didn't think i sounded excited enough so she told me to forget it cause i didn't sound like i wanted to. it was 930 in the morning. she's lucky i'm awake. but i must admit i really didn't want to. we don't do anything and when i have a day off it's usually not used to hang out with as many people i can find. it's to have a day off, time to myself. i don't get that enough. but if i say that, i don't think she'll believe me. it'll turn into all this stuff about how we're not good friends anymore and what's the matter with her and why can't we just freaking talk about stuff and i don't want to get into it. if i get into it then she's going to end up hurt, i'll get the guilt trip and end up apologizing and score one more for her. i just hate that i feel that way, but it just is.
maybe it all comes down to this. i'm different. i'm not like the old spazzy weller anymore. i'm just...there. like sitting, watching, listening weller. it's kind of good. then i don't get myself into trouble, but it's a bad thing cause it's NOT me. oh goodness. maybe i should stop thinking and call her back. the worst that could happen? who knows. - Weller
p.s. - the link page, or the one that says :run: is up and running better than ever! i suggest you check it out. ;)