"i really don't know how long this journal thing will last but i've decided to give it a try. Hopefully it will become a habit.
sarah called and gave a wonderful piece of news. there may be an apartment she can afford to live in. she counts this as an answered prayer and so do i. i'm going to believe she will get this apartment. after all, isn't that how faith works? it's blind. i'm also going to pray. really, truly pray. because faith without actions is fruitless.
how did God amaze me today? well, i think that's a question i'll have to be answering every day. because God does all sorts of amazing things and i want to notice them all. i'm not going to, but i want to.
saturday, after work, i'm going to talk to joel. i'm kind of scared. like right now i feel like crying. i know i'm going to cry saturday. it's just that i want so badly to know what God's will is that sometimes it's making me kind of crazy. i want to go ahead and get a start on it so when the time comes i'll be prepared. i think of it as the first week of college. a week before classes started first semester i went and found all the rooms i had to go to, marked where the bathrooms were, and made an agenda to follow if something went awry. that's just me. i need everything to go smoothly the first time. but stepping into the unknown, i can't be prepared like that.
but i can. it just dawned on me! where has my brain been! the only reason i'm not prepared is because i haven't prepared! genius me doesn't have the prayerful, personal, intimate time with God! i don't read, i don't pray, i don't sit in quiet long enough to hear him. all this time i could have found all the paths i have to tread, marked where the pit stops would be and know what to do if something goes wrong!
but where do i begin? do i read then pray? pray then read? pray about someting to read? then how do i pray and what do i read?
i have a book about how to pray. i could break that out again. or maybe i could just turn around and see a one year praying through the bible book! (which is conveniently placed next to the book on prayer). i'm going to read the one for today then go to bed. night. - Weller"
-as written May 13 in the new journal we made at the IV sleepover.
Disorder | Rating
Paranoid: Low
Schizoid: Low
Schizotypal: Low
Antisocial: Low
Borderline: Low
Histrionic: Low
Narcissistic: Low
Avoidant: Low
Dependent: Low
Obsessive-Compulsive: Low
NICE TO KNOW I'M NORMAL!
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