aha! i AM alive! [ 08.05.04, 11:11 p.m. ]

i know i haven't updated in forever and this too may be a short one.

time has been so short lately. working 8hours a day sure does take some spark out of your life. and to think...you'll have to do it for the rest of your natural born life. sorry if i just made anyone depressed.

interresting things with David going on. he asked me if he could kiss me and i said maybe. turned out to be a no. BUT am i crazy? see, this is my whole thing. kissing brings a relationship into the 'physical' realm. every time i've kissed a boy it's been nothing but kissing. no heart-to-heart relationship has developed, no mind-bending convorsations have erupted from it. kissing begets kissing...which in turn begets more kissing, who begets other things. and those other things aren't exactly what i'm looking for anymore. i've come too far to turn back now. read the book of Numbers and replace all the names with kissing and you should get what i mean.

so i've decided that when i want to kiss him, i'll kiss him. but not until there has been some sort of cosmic connection of the Godly sort pushing me to do so. and that could be forever and a day. we'll see.

i just got back from Jean's house. she lives in cranston and it's quite the easy house to get to. went out to a Japanese resturaunt! we sat on the FLOOR an took our SHOES off! do you know how excited i was! and after all of that we got ice cream! like, real home made japanese ice cream! it was awesome.

only one more day of work...YES! then i get saturday off. well, not really off. i've got a lunch meeting with my sunday school teacher at 2, then meeting with l-speth about the youth thing after 3ish. then aranel would like to chill.

speaking of aranel. would all you wonderful people pray for her? she's not getting along with any of her family and it's tearing her up. she's given 150% and it seems like nothing is coming out of it. she's moving in a few weeks and would like to not go out with a bang. if you know what i mean. so just keep her in your prayers.

so i guess that was my "short" entry for tonight. luvs! i'll be back on saturday cause i's Bourne Supremacy at 7:10 tomorrow night with my hot date! hehe - Weller

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