i figured it out.
i'm more worried than anything. i'm happy for them, i'm excited that they're ready to be with eachother for eternity. i'm just worried that this, like so many things for her, will get messed up.
and i think that the pressure of her asking me to be her maid of honor (if she still wants that) is going to be insane.
i'm a perfectionist. i want things perfect for myself. nevermind for someone else's wedding! i'm gonna go crazy! lol
i guess i'm also a bit jealous. i'm the one that's supposed to go through this all first! lol us with the perfect love were supposed to get engaged first! listen to me! haha! i'm losing it! i suppose doing things in order puts us behind a bit. we still have to find somewhere to live...and some money for a ring...
but everything in it's time.
and lord help me make the right decisions with this. - Weller