ello.
i'm slowly fading into sleepiness, so please excuse anything that doesn't make sense or things that aren't spelled right.
i've been thinking alot about my wedding.
yes, i know i haven't even gotten to the first stage - engagement - but i can still think, can't i?
in a way i feel bad for david. i keep bringing up this stuff about "the" wedding and i think it scares him.
it scares me too, don't get me wrong, but i'd rather start planning now than wait till i have a year before it happens. call me psycho...
i'm one of those rather safe than sorry types. obsessive/compulsive...yeah, maybe. hehehe.
i don't want to say too many things to david about it because i feel like i'm putting pressure on him. which, no doubt, i am, but i don't want to.
i keep asking him if he feels pressured when i ask him things or tell him things i've been thinking of and he of course says no. but i do believe he's lying. i'd lie. lol
i guess it's just one of those things i'll have to try not to bring up for now. i mean, he's got to have some time. we've got to have some time.
both of us said we didn't want to rush it, and here i am trying to begin planning a stinking wedding! yeah, i really meant what i said...
then again, it's also hard not to think about these things when your friend is planning for her wedding. it's constantly on your mind, obnoxious, yes, but there.
so i'm torn. discuss these things, or save it all for when there's actually a ring on my finger and a date set and worry about it all then...hm...
we'll see what happens...
majority rules!!!!