It's About TIME! [ 01.30.04, 7:48 p.m. ]

RANDOM: "Faith is power to believe and power to see." - Prentice Mulford

ah another JG dream. i was wondering where the heck it had been cause it has been long overdue!

anyway, we were both working at Shaws and he was on register 13 as a cashier. i was bagging for him inside the cashier's spot. (there's this little bag stand for the cashier to bag in) we were singing the songs that were playing kind of softly. he would sing the melody and i'd just hum the harmony. on the end note of one of the songs i bent backwards and we sang the note together and then he gave me a peck on the lips. (YAY!) Once while i was still baging we wrote eachother a note on a plastic bag. In elvish. (HA maybe he knows elvish!) he wrote something and i wrote something back and he says "what, does that mean 'how long do i have to wait?'" i told him no. ( i didn't know what it meant anyways) All the sudden i worked at JCPennys and i was at the checkout counter and he was somewhere else. I kept hoping he'd come back. like he was around, i just didn't know where. guess he was supposed to come in for something. i remember that he was wearing a white button down shirt, jeans, and a leather jacket (very hot mind you). Anyways all i could think about was how i wanted to wrap my arms around his waist and i just wanted him to come back from wherever he was really badly. like i could feel the disappointment everytime the door opened and it wasn't him. weird. so i had to go outside to help this little old lady park her tiny little car and when i looked around the parking lot i noticed my car was missing so i told this chick (apparently i knew her) that my car was missing from the lot. for some reason i didn't panic. i thought my mom and sister had it cause them and Josh were planning this whole big deal and something awesome was going to happen with me and Josh. (cause my car was gone...wow...ok) i didn't know all of this tho, i just felt it.

how creepy is that? he's in the first part of my dream but no where to be found in the second part. but o geez did i just want him there. somewhere, even if in the corner of somewhere he had to be there to make my mind at ease. ok weller, ooook. i wish i could remember more of the dream. i know there was more but i can't remember! maybe it will hit me tonight, or i'll get the second half of the story. *laughs* i wish.

hung out with Joe yesterday. we went bowling. i beat him badly. 6 strikes in one game. 123average. i rock. then we hung out for a while after that, waiting for liz to get there. she was my safety. so she came by and we went to subway to eat some lunch. on the way back to my house before class the discussion started. he doesn't "get" me, why don't i lighten up, why don't i have some fun, you know you want to kiss me, why don't you like guys (i just looked at him like he was nuts,) when you're young your body is more sensitive. know what? there's a part of his body that's sensitive and if need be i'll...ok, chill. chill. talked to madre about it. i just need to tell him that if he can't get off my back about this then we're not gonna be able to hang out. simple as that. yea, i wish it was going to be that simple. he's gonna have a complete cow, maybe 2 cows if i catch him on a good day. erch. can't i just like...dispose of him or something? no wonder i desperately wanted JG to come back from wherever he was if this is what i get to work with! (i'd desperately want him to come back anyways...but) all the way to and from class the discussion was about me and him. there is no me and him. the boy is cracking up. i needed to like run over something by the time i got home. lordy.

Sometime tonight i'm going to my friend Jean's...wait, is that a capital letter? a capital that's not attached to a name? woah, what's goin on here...we're gonna watch a movie and eat. mmm. then it's off to work bright and early (well maybe dark and early it'll still be dark when i go to work) tomorrow. ah, gotta love it! - Weller

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