RANDOM: "Wether you can think you can or think you can't-you are right" - Henry Ford
today was strange. we were so ready. and once again we were the wrong ones. we became wrong. we did not start out wrong, but became it.
i can't say that i wasn't surprised. happens all the time. blames our new faith, our lack of knowledge, our lack of self. blames individually, not on the whole.
we had one against us. i truly believe she made her choose wether to sit on our side or hers. and of course she sat on hers. i would if i were her. but she was none the less against us. then again, who can be against us when God is for us? i think aranel made her angry tho. that prolly didn't help us, or her for that matter.
i told her that i loved her, she flat out told me that i didn't. how can she tell me what is in my heart. i don't love her as much as i should, but i do none the less. you must love your neighbour as yourself. this i have done. she told me i did not and was using that to make her feel bad.
main thing- "i am trying to do what God has put in my heart" that's great, except you're not the only one with a vision or a desire and certainly not the only one trying to find, and follow God. it is true, we do not see certain things...but we are not Godless in our days.
we are stepping as carefully as we know how. someone was going to get hurt no matter how we brought our issues, or even if we brought them. it was either going to be us if we didn't or her if we did. i could not sit there and let things deteriorate as they have done.
she stopped the dance group. she told us her heart was broken and that she had been puking all morning because of us. *riased eyebrow* the guilt trip? she had, probably but did we need to know? we should've told her that we were shaking in our boots because we could not come to her out of our own person. she told us that we were going to dismantle the dance group and think about it for a month. come back and tell her if we want to dance or not. IF she is pieced back together by then, she will start it back up again.
this group is over in my eyes but i will pray and read my word. ask for guideance. my problem may be that i cannot see a way out of this without losing dance, or our minds.
-Weller