ta da.
it's kind of weird that every time i'm writing an entry, i'm stuffing my face.
coinsidence? i think not.
my mom keeps telling me i spell interesting wrong. and i do write interesting alot, but now that i've got the handle on spelling interesting i fear the grip for spelling may've loosed itself. cause everything i write, gramatically correct or otherwise, is looking funny.
thanks mom, for making me insecure.
haha.
talked to david today. of course. his parents are making fun of him cause i haven't seen him in 12 hours and i'm already calling him to inform him that i don't have dance practice today.
is that wrong?
dependancy? no. the want to hear the boy's voice? yes.
of course it'd be nice to see him as well, but i can't always get what i want, ya know?
yes, i spend from 5pm to 11pm with him last night, but we weren't alone! we were wandering around in providence place mall trying not to lose eachother and make it to our final destination.
there's no time to sit and be cuddly or just talk about whatever is going through your brain in a given moment. you can't do that in a mall. specially when you're trying to make sure no one's rifling through your pocketbook. lol
yes, we held hands. but it's not the same as the one-on-one time that's given when there's not mass amounts of people everywhere.
granted they don't want to hear our conversations, and probably could care less if we were there at all. that's not my point.
but i think you get the point, so i'll stop raving.
k?
SO. next tuesday is the JG concert and i am so psyched! i really didn't know it was this close until my sister said something. i know, i should be ashamed of myself. and i am, to a degree. but...life goes on.
i got to talk to my cousin the other day. you know the deal, about the hole that's really a puzzle piece when you look at it and no matter what you try to mold to fit in the spot, it won't fit. it helps for a while, but in the end it just pops out and smacks you in the face.
you know what i'm talking about. the hole you can't fill with anything but Jesus Christ.
it went okay, she knows the deal. she's been raised in the church. but then it turned into how i'm just like my mom (which, dear, i love) and i'm trying to act too old for my age (does that make sense, seeing what you've seen written here?). i'm only 21 and i try to act older than i am.
i think not. i believe God has blessed me with a mature mind. i may not use it always, but that's another story. i'm not this way for nothing. or becauese i'm trying.
but i think that was just dome kind of diversionary tactic. and it worked. we all know i can't be too serous for too long. i've got to say something stupid so the moment doesn't get out of hand or something.
so i did. which i probably shouldn't've done, but it's done.
so if you could, please please please please send up a prayer for my cousin. and me too, that i could maybe not act so "grown-up ish" when i talk to her or something. i dunno. that God equips me to never give up until what he wants is accomplished. yeah, that's good.
and does anyone have a favorite book of the bible that they want other people to read? tell me so i can read it! study it! know it for my own. don't keep those precious pearls in your treasure box. GIVE SOME TO ME! lol i like pearls. haha. luvs - Weller p.s. i wrote in my guestbook again. go check it out. LOL i'm such a loser!

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